It's a new year ...

Greetings ADO Fans

As you know, in my previous post, I mentioned my mother's diagnosis of Stage IV Pancreatic Cancer in November. I am sad to say she passed away in January. I want to thank everyone who has been sending me emails of encouragement and strength since then - it is really nice to hear from ADO Fans and it helps to keep me going and looking forward to writing again. It's been about a month since her passing and thanks to my bastard lunatic of a stepfather it was an equally dramatic and additionally painful process. His actions and selfishness were right out of a bad Lifetime movie or Jerry Springer show. *sigh* It never ceases to amaze me how fucked up and evil people can be and when they chose to show their true colors.

It has been a while since I've been able to even watch drama, let alone sit down and collect my thoughts enough to write. I also will admit, the last batch of shows that were coming out a few months back really did not interest me at all. Even before all of the events that really threw my life for a loop, I was completely turned off by Orthros no Inu and I was thinking ... "If this is where Japanese drama is headed then I doubt I'll have much to write on for a while." The quality and the kind of "phoned in" acting that was throughout that drama - which I never finished watching - left a bad taste in my mouth for a while. The last Japanese drama I started watching - and had been excited about - was Tokyo Dogs and honestly watching Mizushima Hiro run around like a greasy haired idiot was just so grotesque I couldn't finish even the first episode. What's become of my JDramas? I mean seriously am I just to be left with stuff like Samurai High School and Otomen? ORLY? I'm glad to see Code Blue 2 and Liar Game 2 but honestly, most everything isn't really appealing to me these days. When I first started this blog it seemed like there was just a huge flood of good stuff that I could really sink my teeth and intellect into and then it just dribbled off into nonsense ... HAHAHA or maybe I did after Orthros numbed my brain. I will give Yamato Nadeshiko Shichi Henge a try but I couldn't even get through the anime version so who knows. I'm only interested because I have loved Kazuya since Nobuta (which in my mind was one of the best dramas I have seen) and I'm hoping to enjoy his acting in Yamanade.

To be honest, I've mostly been interested in the new Korean dramas that have just finished up like IRIS, The Man Who Can't Get Married, and Style and I plan to focus on those over the next few months.

I feel I am still in a grieving process over my mother. I picked up my phone to call her the other day and it just really struck me again that she is gone. I wonder how I will be able to emotionally fall into dramas the way I need to in order to write. I want to try. I have to push myself to try or I may never be able to start again.